Treasure or Trash? Day 5

 I've been pulling stuff off the bottom shelf of one of my bookcases trying to downsize completely.  Is that even possible?   I have gotten rid of many boxes of books over the years, but notebooks and stuff I've written? Not yet! - I am trying, so I'll give myself credit for that.

A lot of this are notes I've taken from many classes.  I thought I'd re read them but I didn't/don't.   They need to go! However I did find some gems.  

I used to teach a journaling workshop 

One of my workshops was at a spiritual retreat in the mountains of eastern Tennessee.  After finishing the meditation we all wrote about images we received.  I just re-read mine.

March 20, 1997.  Just did the meditation for the journaling workshop.  I was in a room with a super computer where I could get on the angel internet and receive answers to any questions I want.  My angel gave me a crystal ball that stores information in it from the Angel internet.  So I am always tuned in and can help people with this information.

 There is also a  massage table and a massage therapist ready to relax me at all times. There is beautiful music and with the snap of a finger almost, I can be in a library with many kinds of books that I can borrow.

  There are art supplies and canvasses, games and more music. A piano for me to use and lessons available.

  An angel is there to teach me how to fly, to transport myself into any time I want, any place. 

 This is my playroom, my fun room and I'm so happy that I discovered it. I want to build myself a place like this in the Smokey Mountains where I can see clients, parties and play. There will be a big wall that opens up to a dance room where we all dance and play.   A chef is there to make us healthy food and a big swimming pool is also available. 

So here I am, 24 years later...  still dreaming.

P.S. I discovered a folder filled with half written children's stories and sketches.  Another blog.  Stay tuned.

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Healing in the Sunrise Day 4

 

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Day 3 Ramblings

 So I've been basking in reading blogs and replying with enjoyment.  I got so many ideas for writing my own until they all disappeared.  Where did they go? What happened?  I guess overload is the word.  But it was fun.  

"Stop reading and write your own." I told myself. But I didn't listen and kept reading and procrastinating.  Finally I made myself stop and start writing.  Ha, nothing happened.  I shuffled angel cards asking, "what do I blog about today?"  I pulled 3 cards, tried to photograph them and the whole thing felt Blah.  I put them back in the box and read some more blogs.  

"Ok enough already, WRITE!"  All right already, I'm writing. 

This reminds me of when I was writing Confession stories back in the 1980s.  I would be writing and another idea would pop into my head.  I stopped working on the story in front of me and started another story with the new idea.   Yes I did finish and sold a bunch but I ended up with a lot of unfinished stories too. I really don't want a pile of unfinished blog drafts now.  

Has this happened to any of you and how did you work through it and be productive?

I am glad I'm writing a blog for 30 days with you all even if not every one I write is not the best.  I love myself anyhow.


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Blogging With Effy in April Day 1

 Ok so I'm a day late but it's better than as late as I started the last time - when was that, two years ago?  I was hoping Effy would start her Artfully Wild Blog Along and she did! Thank you.  For some reason this blog challenge inspires me to blog more.  Will I blog all month?  

I am so glad it isn't this day a year ago.  I was alternating between liking to stay home and being terrified about the pandemic.  I hadn't decided about having food delivered yet, we were still going grocery shopping very early on Sr. Citizens day. That meant 7am.  I am not a morning person, especially not shopping but we had to eat.  The empty shelves were shocking.  I had a grocery list but had to revise what we were buying due to many foods being unavailable. I hope I never have to go through that again.  

One thing I learned from all this is how much easier it is to shop for groceries online and have them delivered.  So even though I had my 2nd vaccination on Tuesday and April 13th I will be considered fully vaccinated, I am looking forward to going places a bit more safely now, I intend to continue having the main groceries delivered.  

On our way to the grocery store at 7am 2020

Empty grocery shelves 2020

Grocery Shopping at Home

 Years ago when I experienced agoraphobic at its strongest I dreaded grocery shopping.  But we needed food.  Hubby was working and I couldn't expect him to work and shop too.  So I'd force myself to go even though I never knew when I'd have a debilitating panic attack.   Forget standing in line!  Grocery shopping or any other shopping tired me out for days.  I wished I could buy groceries for a month and never have to step into the store for weeks.

Eventually with therapy and coping tools I learned I did get better, although I've never been one to enjoy going to malls and shops. 

Fast forward 55 years...  Hubby has been retired for many years and we grocery shop together.  I actually enjoy it now - or did until the Covid-19 pandemic of 2020 arrived.  We are up in years and have been advised to stay out of stores and stay home.   It's been nine months now.  For a while we shopped as early as possible after the store opened to avoid the crowds.  That's when they had special hours for older folks and those who's health has been compromised.   But the virus started spreading faster, more people were catching it and truthfully I didn't want to go anyplace. I'm not scared of dying but not of this virus.   So a friend, who had been shopping online for awhile, guided me how she does it.  At first the idea really didn't appeal to me because I like to see what I'm ordering. I didn't want someone else picking out my fresh fruits, meat and vegetables. Truth be told, I was really skeptical.

At first I tried a small pickup order after learning how to order online. That was the fun part ordering groceries on an app on my ipad.  We did the pick up and whoever did the shopping was very good.  The vegetables were nice and my order was just what I would have done myself.

After another pickup I discovered the store offered a 15 day trial for free delivery.   I read some posts by others who were not happy with their experiences, some local and others national so my skepticism spoke up again.  But some were really happy with it.

Surprise surprise, it was a wonderful experience!!!  I signed up for a year for free delivery at what I feel is a very reasonable price.  Now I'm hooked!  After we shopped we were both worn out for the rest of the day.  But with free delivery all we do is bring the groceries in, wipe them down and put them away.  I sit in my recliner and order our food and have it delivered.  What a joy.  I would have loved this 55 years ago.  After the pandemic is over I intend to continue to shop online and have our groceries delivered.  Sure I might go the store for some things like fresh cooked fried chicken. I'm really missing that.  

I just hope that being isolated for so long won't trigger more panic when we are safe to go back out.  If so, I do have more help than I did in the past.  

I belong to a wonderful Emotional Freedom Tapping group Thriving Now.   I've learned so much about emotional healing and freedom here.  I also use meditation.  The App Calm is good for calming with breathing and focusing on the now.   I belong to an agoraphobia group on Facebook where we help each other with understanding and not feeling so alone.  

Are you Potty Trained Yet?

 What if this world we're living in is "not even beyond the cosmic equivalent of potty training"?

Right now with the pandemic it sort of feels like it.  I mean look at the politicians and how they are blaming each other instead of using their status (I won't even say the word power) to solve this Covid-19 virus.   
Here it is five months since us older folks are told to stay home.   

People are saying masks don't work and even the president only wears his mask when he wants to.  He even claimed on Wednesday that catching the coronavirus was “a blessing from God”

I'm reading a book: Afterlife Adventures: Life After Death Stories/What Happens When We Die/Is There Proof?  by William Fergus Martin. He's the one I quoted from about potty training and he goes on to say, "Yet that takes nothing away from our potential and what we will eventually become."

I'm fascinated and when I see the news and all the political blaming ads I think, "Potty Training class".  

Yes I will vote but I'm going to stop allowing myself to get any more upset by the potty training classes and focus more on spreading love, angel blessings, joy and laughter. This does not mean I don't care because I do but I need to take care of myself now.  Too many aches, pains and stomach aches from watching potty training antics.  

So if you want a few laughs come on over to my FUN page. And take good care of you.  You have guardian angels around you who are waiting for you to ask them for help.  They love you and that's the start of another blog.