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I spent 75 + years unable to organize my stuff and they called me the Clutterbug. I love books and magazines. Plus I saved piles of papers that had been stuffed in folders from years ago. I am also a writer and saved every article I could find about writing plus all those rejections and half written stories. My files were overflowing and the tops of my file cabinets were piled high with unorganized books - smaller books on the bottom that would crash to the floor periodically. My office was a MESS. How to declutter? Where to start? What is keeping me from letting go? Who am I without my clutter? Did I feel incomplete without my books, magazines and papers?
With the help of Rick Wilkes' coaching and Thriving Now I got uncluttered enough to actually downsize and move. I thought I was doing well, and I was. But Rick Wilkes and Carol Look created a Free webinar to help with getting rid of clutter. I joined and was amazed to discover I still have clutter issues. 6000 + emails! Yes that is part of clutter too! Yes it bothers me! Yes I want to delete them and have more control over my emails! I was also amazed to learn I had FOMO (Fear of Missing Out) What if I miss something? What if I don't have something anymore? What if I need it some day? That is why I moved too many books, too many papers and too many magazines! So I still have more to do but I know it will get easier. How? I joined the free webinar and it helped me so much I got the Clutter program. Would you like to watch the Free webinar and see if you have clutter issues or find ways to make your surroundings and your mind more peaceful? Ok here it is!
Cool isn't it! And so informative! There is a place there to sign up if you want to join the clutter program. You can join it here too. I am so excited to have released a lot of clutter in my life that I just want to share it with others. I'm also looking forward to releasing 6,000+ emails of my own and healing my FOMO!
Day 10 Write about a Dream you Once had that you let go of and where did that lead you?
Gosh this feels heavy. "What am I going to write about?" I wondered, as I pondered my life. I could write that I wanted to be an Airline stewardess way back when but they wouldn't accept anyone with facial scars, thinking they were caused by an airline crash - plus I was too short. Then I thought about how I wanted to live and work in New York City. But mother told me if I left home before I was married she'd hire some strong men to come and bring me home. At that time I didn't realize I had any power. Oh yes I wanted to be a nurse until I was in a hospital elevator with my nurses club and smelled ether. I had a humongous panic attack from all the ether I had been given as a kid during my surgeries. Another dream out. So where did all this lead me?
I've mentioned in other blogs that I had PTSD from all my surgeries and not being allowed to express my feelings and a big school phobia that turned into agoraphobia. So I would say my search for healing led me to an interesting and fulfilling life.
Agoraphobia
Okay so I started searching for ways to feel safer and less afraid. I went every week for hypnosis which helped me relax a bit more. That was working good until they wanted to drug me. I told them no and got dismissed. I tried Biofeedback and it was one of the first times that I ever really felt totally relaxed. Actually I had to relax to make biofeedback work. I would love to have one of their machines to practice with now. I went through 3 weeks of intense Primal Scream therapy and lost my fear of losing control and being locked up someday. That was promising but it was not practical to be primal screaming all the time, especially when we lived in my mother-in-law's guest house apartment to help her with the property. So I had to close off some of my emotions again.
I founded the Agoraphobics Anonymous in Palm Beach County back in 1978 with the help of a group from Miami and the local Mental Health Association. I facilitated it for a year until I knew it was time to move on.
During this time a friend was studying Astrology. I really didn't know much about it and he offered to do my chart for me. I got so interested in how there were so many different combinations of charts. It was fascinating and showed me why some people are certain ways and other people see the world in other ways. He also pointed out things in my chart that showed why I felt the way I did. And he said a window of opportunity was coming for me to grow and get out more socially. He said the window wouldn't close but if I used the energy it would make it much easier. So I did and started taking classes in Astrology. My teacher also used Tarot cards and I got interested in how they worked and took many classes about reading the cards on many levels.
I loved the idea of Angels and Guides helping us so I was playing around on AOL and typing in angel names. I found Angels Love You which I grabbed and have kept ever since. I got it as my domain name and created a web page and a page on Facebook using it.
I have since discovered Emotional Freedom Technique where we tap on the acupuncture points expressing exactly how we feel instead of trying to push our feelings down and covering them up. When people go through traumas their instincts are to Flee or Fight, but when they can't do either they Freeze. There are many kinds of traumas and even little ones that go on and on can turn into Post Traumatic Stress. Like someone who is afraid to go to school every day and no one believes she is afraid but thinks she is just being naughty. When she isn't listened to then she can develop physical symptoms like headaches or stomach aches. I experienced this myself and have read where children were taken to the doctors for this and they don't find anything wrong so they force them to go to school. It would be better if the child was listened to and the parents or doctor tried to find out what they are afraid of so they can release the fears or learn to use tools during fear/anxiety episodes.
I am going to share with you a video that Karin Davidson teaches a child how to use EFT for anger.
Here is another video by Brad Yates helping a child acknowledge her fear and releasing it.
I am so glad I've gone through all this so I can help people. It is one of my greatest joy in life to help someone feel better about themselves, to be able to acknowledge how they feel instead of putting on a happy face when they are suffering inside. I have heard to "Feel the fear and do it anyway." But that is the hard way. Yes there are many ways to work through feelings. I honor this and can only say what works for me
Of course affirmations can work after we acknowledge our feelings and meditation also works. (You don't have to clear your head of all thoughts to meditate either). I also call in my angels for myself and even when I'm tapping I call in my angels to help me release the stuck emotions. After a session with a client we pull an angel card or two. It is so cool that the card that appears always is the perfect card for what we have been working on.
Look, it worked again! Look at the card that fell out as I was shuffling asking for the perfect card for this blog. "A dream come true! Believe in yourself. The end of a difficult situation." Isn't that what the blog for today is all about? I just love these cards and how the angels help us.
Last night I watched a PBS special about rescuing abandoned parrots or parrots that people could not keep. It was an hour long special and talked about poachers taking baby parrots from the nests and raising them to sell. Now instead of poaching they breed parrots. There are hundreds if not thousands of parrots who now live in rescue places. They went on to show how parrots and other birds are social and need to be with their own. They find mates and bond. Parrots alone in a cage get so anxious they start pulling out their own feathers. This is like people who are in so much pain they cut themselves. I got tears in my eyes watching this and especially when I saw a parrot raised as a baby being released and practicing flying. Then it soared with another parrot and flew free.
This program deeply affected me, even more than I realized because I've often felt caged by fears and anxiety. I have a feeling that I once knew how to fly but living on this planet with gravity holding me down, I forgot how. I had a flying dream once and hope to have more. I got into the shower and found myself sobbing, runny nose, snorting type of crying. It surprised me but it didn't stop for awhile. The crying wasn't about the birds so much but about feelings that came up for me. I have had panic and anxiety most of my life which was diagnosed as Agoraphobia.
I'm better now because of a lot of different therapies, especially Emotional Freedom, tapping, but I feel a lot of my life has looked like this..
What does it feel like to live a life of freedom and really fly?
When I was a child I had to climb these stairs that crossed the railroad tracks to get to school. I was TERRIFIED! Most of the kids liked it and they'd laugh and hop, skip across without any cares. Me, I whimpered to myself but tried to act brave. Some days when there weren't any other children there I'd wait, wait so I wouldn't have to cross alone. I'm not sure what I was afraid of but I was. I'm not even sure I told anyone how scared I was. They wouldn't listen anyhow, just tell me to be a brave little girl.
There were times when I'd stay at my Grandmother's house over night and I could walk to school without crossing the scary bridge. One of the people mentioned how icy the steps got in the winter. I don't even remember crossing it in the winter. Did I get driven to school? I don't know.
Even today as I look at this picture I want to apologize to the scared little girl that still lives inside. I want to tell her how sorry I am that she was so scared. I can still feel the terror.
I think I'll do some tapping and let her feel her fear so she can release it. Then I'll cuddle with her and give her some hugs and kisses. I'll tell her that I've come back to rescue her and she'll never have to face those formidable steps again. I love you little Maurie
When I was a child I had many surgeries to repair a cleft lip and palate. I was told to be a "good girl" and a "big girl" and don't cry. But I was terrified. I told my mother I was nervous and she said, "Little girls don't have nerves." Why am I writing about this? Because as a child I couldn't flee. I couldn't fight. So my emotions and fears froze inside. I had to wear a cuff that prevented me from reaching up and pulling out my stitches so I felt even more trapped.
I became phobic and when I went to school I looked different and was hard of hearing. The kids called me quiver lip and more. One little girl said she'd be friends with me when we were alone but when others were around she wouldn't be my friend. I accepted that but it hurt. I didn't learn how to stand up for myself. I had a stomach ache every morning before I went to school and actually looked forward to being sick so I could stay home from school and not feel stressed.
The teachers didn't know how scared I was, they just thought I was trying to get away with doing my school work or they thought I was stupid. I often sat in class staring out the window wanting to run home but I knew they would bring me back to school. Having not dealt with any of these fears, they turned into Agoraphobia, the fear of having a panic attack and losing control. For many years I thought someday I was going to go crazy and get locked up in a mental institution. I used to call it "my problem" having no idea what was wrong with me or how to get help. People would tell me to just get out there and be brave. I had been "brave" for too long.
Why am I talking about this now? Not to make anyone feel sorry for me but to explain that I was traumatized by not being able to flee or fight. All these fears were locked down within and came out as phobias. I had many types of therapies and everything helped a little but it wasn't until I found Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) and Thriving now that I really got help. When we experience a series of traumas our primitive brain does everything it can to protect us, to try and keep us safe. For me my primitive brain helped me feel safe by making me scared to go to doctors, dentists, school and I don't even like to get my hair cut. I am getting better though thanks to learning about the Primitive Brain and how to make it my friend and sooth it. There is a wonderful course that I took and was greatly helped that is starting again. It is called Reprogramming Your Primitive Brain. Anyone who signs up before midnight on Thursday gets a free 20 minute tapping session with Rick Wilkes either by Skype or phone. Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli have helped me so much and I have many tools now if a panic attack starts. I am still a work in progress but I've come a long way.
So if you have anxiety or feel unsafe, have a problem with self-worth you might want to take a look at the Reprogramming Your Primitive Brain Course. There are tapping videos, meditations, phone calls you can participate in and more. You didn't need to experience the kinds of trauma I did to feel unworthy or have self-esteem issues. There are many "small traumas" that can trigger these kinds of feelings. Tapping is amazing and very simple. I continue to feel more confident and happier. I hope you will too.
Have you ever had a day when you felt foggy in the brain and couldn't seem to make any decisions? I think we all have.
Does it feel like this?
Or this?
I love riding through the fog but I sure don't like it in my head. On those foggy head days I just kick back, take some self-care and wait. Or maybe I tap on "Feeling foggy and fuzzy brain." Feeling like this can be from overload, trying to make too many decisions, stress and more. When I allow myself to feel my feelings without pushing them away or pushing them down by using affirmations, I usually feel better the next day and sometimes even later that same day. The sun begins to shine. That's not to say affirmations don't work or aren't helpful. They are as long as we aren't using them to cover up and push down feelings we need to acknowledge. If I do use affirmations and I hear "yeah but", that's what I need to pay attention to and clear. Then the affirmations have a better chance of working.
Maybe it is a fuzzy, foggy sun but at least the fog is beginning to clear. If we wait long enough the sun does come out and we start feeling better and hopefully getting more clarity.
Now this feels like clarity to me! Full sun shining, lighting up the picture, lighting up my life with new ideas, new answers for those difficult decisions and peace. I can help you with your decisions with a tapping session, an angel reading and more. http://angelsloveyou.com/ jeanmaurie@angelsloveyou.com Love, Jean Maurie
I just watched this video (posted below) on Facebook and felt tears well up and roll down my face. It brought up some strong emotions. I wonder how many of us followed the rules, trying to "get there" but it didn't work. Did you? What are your experiences? I would love to read them if you feel vulnerable enough to share. The rules to be a good daughter, student, wife, mother... Clean the house when I'd rather be writing or dancing. Have dinner on the table when my husband came home from work. Feeling guilty because I wasn't out working. Or even feeling guilty while writing because I wasn't doing laundry or vacuuming. This might sound whining and maybe it is. This is how we were brought up in the 40s. I've been unlearning. Here is a poem I loved and would read when I felt guilty writing or playing. It helped some.
Have you ever felt so angry you just wanted to smash everything in sight, tear up a room, take a baseball bat and break something? I have. I felt like that recently after feeling overloaded about other things and was told that Microsoft was going to update my windows 7 laptop to windows 10 whether I wanted it or not. I was furious. It felt like such an invasion of privacy. It was all about boundary issues. I understood that. But it felt like someone had knocked on my front door, pushed themselves in and said I had to use their stove whether I wanted it or not. That would be illegal. Why isn't microsoft's pushing windows 10 on us illegal too? Is this freedom? I was so angry I couldn't stop myself. I sat there crying and saying, "I don't know how to stop myself from feeling this way. Yes I tapped, I cursed, I screamed and I kicked a cabinet off it's hinges. I called on my angels for help. Then I felt like I couldn't catch my breath and I got scared. This kind of anger is definitely not good for me or anyone else. I felt bad for my body and decided to use the Ho'oponopono prayer asking my body to forgive me. I'm sorry, please forgive me, I love you, thank you.
I found out later that there are ways to prevent Windows 10 from downloading into my computer. I know this was not earth shaking but it pushed all my boundary and fairness issues.
I don't ever want to get this angry again because while I was in the midst of it I realized how someone who was over stressed or had boundary issues could get into road rage and worse. Even though I'm troubled about the intensity of this anger and ashamed for kicking and breaking a cabinet I choose to love and accept myself and all my feelings.
I was posting about my anger and someone posted a link about an anger room. What a great idea, to have a place where people could actually let off steam and break things if they had to.
A few weeks ago I met a group of people who'd I'd known online since about 2008. I was a little nervous thinking about the meetup a week or so before. I imagined myself surrounded by a group of people and not being able to hear what was being said. I tapped on it and worked with my coaches, Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli who helped me realize I could speak up, say "I'm almost deaf in my right ear, and I'd like to switch places with you so I could hear better." Yes I could do that but it would feel awkward. Okay so Saturday night came and we drove up to the little Taco place in Asheville to meet these people, I was excited. We all recognized each other and that was so cool! Here were some very lovely souls who I'd been reading their posts and been in groups with for almost seven years. One lady was driving from New York to California with her children and she stopped here in Asheville to meet us all. What fun! We sat outside on benches while eating and talking. My worry about not hearing well vanished, I had no problem. Then the picture taking began. I thought I was smiling. Well I was but with my mouth closed. I always feel self conscious about my teeth. But we all feel self conscious about something don't we? I've been learning about this in my Thriving Now tapping group. This wonderful, fun evening felt good until later when I saw one of the pictures that was posted.
I saw their fresh open faces and smiles and thought, "Oh I look like a crotchety old lady, ewwww" It really did make me feel bad. Now I do know intellectually that we only make ourselves feel bad or good depending on how we think. But that didn't help me when I looked at the picture. Yes there were other good pictures but of course what do we usually focus on? The bad ones of course. Even famous writers and film stars latch on to the critical reviews even when they've read hundreds of wonderful ones. Why do we feel this need to focus on the negative instead? Is this a human trait? Is it part of the lessons we're here on earth to learn? I posted this picture and my feelings about it on the Thriving Now forum where I'm a member and one of the tribe members told me I was probably being too hard on myself. She posted a wonderful You Tube Video of Brad Yates tapping on comparing ourselves.
I tapped with it as I visualized myself in this picture and it helped a lot. This is when I decided to write this blog. It does make me feel very vulnerable to write this and put it out on social media but if it helps anyone else to feel better about themselves it is worth it. I hope the ladies in the picture don't mind me posting this. As Brad Yates says in this video "I'd rather love than compare and I am loving myself just as I am in body, mind and spirit."
“Dear God,” I wrote in my
diary in 1957-58.“If you will bring me
a man who loves me I will be the best wife imaginable. I have a lot of love to share.”
Five days with sporadic internet outages! I phoned my internet provider daily, got apologies, work order numbers and promises. I told them I needed my internet to be working on Thursday at 1pm because I was the host of a radio show and was told, "Oh yes it will be working." But I had an uneasy feeling, rightfully so. I called Maggie, my co-host and asked her to run the studio as host, which she did. I logged on as co-host and just as I suspected, my internet went down during the show again. At least I was able to interview our guest on the telephone.
Not sure if you know but I am a big proponent of Emotional Freedom Technique and tapping. But on the 3rd day with my internet going up and down, being totally unreliable, I was so angry that tapping didn't help much. But I tapped anyhow because I knew I was getting a benefit somewhere in my body. But I wasn't feeling less angry. My husband suggested we get out of the house for awhile and see if our new friend who owned a farm had any silver queen corn. Bernie called him and he had four ears left that he would save for us so we drove over to his farm. As we drove I kept asking myself, "How do I want to feel?" I was still furious about the internet outage because I was paying business rates and it was almost impossible to run an online business without being able to get online.
Tapping Points
I touched each one of the upper tapping points saying, "how do you want to feel?" I began feeling calmer and I started focusing on the trees with their beautiful green leaves. I began noticing how many different shades of green there are on the different trees. I focused on smelling the fresh air coming in the car window. The sun was shining, I am healthy, I have a loving husband, we have a home, money to buy food and life is good. I am so blessed to have learned the wonderful question, "How Do You Want to Feel?" From my coaches, Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli. How do you want to feel has helped change the way I look at problems, it has been a stress reliever and I don't stuff my feelings like I used to.
When we got to the farm, he was no where to be found but that was okay because we weren't in a hurry. We saw a bag with the corn waiting and I looked at the rest of the vegetables he had in the baskets. The fresh yellow squash was so beautiful so I bagged up some. I'd been buying lots of fresh vegetables and making soup for the winter. Here are some of the beautiful tomatoes he had for sale.
I decided to take some pictures with my cell phone because it was such a peaceful place to be and I continued feeling blessed.
The farmer's name is Mr. Lance and he had been inside eating lunch and didn't hear us pull up. He is a native of this area of North Carolina and had some interesting stories to tell. We pulled up some chairs and enjoyed listening to him. I also liked how he had this book that he wrote all the purchases down and then added them up with a calculator. No credit cards, no electronic devices. How cool and down to earth!
I wanted to feel better - calm and happy instead of angry and it worked. Here are some more beautiful pictures on the farm.
Another wonderful benefit of tapping and asking myself how do I want to feel is that I don't get the old stomach aches I used to get when I was upset and frustrated. I don't get as many headaches or backaches either. No I'm not perfect yet and I still have more to learn and practice but I feel very blessed.
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This morning I saw this picture on Facebook and it triggered some heavy
emotions in me. I could hardly catch my breath as I read these words. I let fear rule my life. Now that I've been involved with EFT, especially Thriving Now with Rick Wilkes and Cathy Vartuli, I'm learning to find those pieces of me I hid because I was afraid of being judged how I looked, how i spoke, and more. I've climbed a few emotional mountains and found bravery within I never knew I had. I'm sure there are more pieces of myself I can reclaim as I continue to climb mountains, drive to unknown places and dance to my music. Does anyone want to join me?
I'm trying to organize clutter in my office. Whenever I do this, for some reason I get all tense. I started a pile of little things I didn't know what to do with and I felt more tense. So I stopped and did some tapping (EFT)on why I get tense when I start to declutter. I felt myself relax but I still had a pile of miscellaneous papers on my lap. What to do with them?
I love baskets, so suddenly I got the idea of getting myself a WTF basket. I could start throwing miscellaneous papers in there. But is that uncluttering? Or am I creating more clutter?
I have my bills organized and paid on time, I get my library books back on time - usually, so why does clutter clutter up my brain? Maybe its a deeper issue that I need to delve into, maybe I love my clutter. After all when I was on CB radio I was known as the clutterbug when I wasn't called other names. I don't have boxes piled up to the ceiling so it's not like I'm a hoarder - I'm just messy. Sometimes I really love my clutter until I start thinking I "should" have a neat and tidy office. I read an article where clutter isn't necessarily bad, its the sign of a creative mind. I've also read articles that say get rid of your clutter so you unclutter your mind and life!
I think there is an easier way to deal with clutter and I just told myself I am in control. So I'm sitting here writing about it instead of DOING it and I feel much better.
So if anyone knows where to get a WTF basket please let me know. Thanks
