Thoughts on the Past and How I Want to Feel

 September 11, 2021,

I saw this on my news feed this morning and it spoke to me. Not only did it have to do with remembering 9/11 but also the Delta Virus.  I wish I could stop imagining the worst and start imagining heaven on earth but it's something I have to work at. Some days are better than others but some times I can't, and my mind will swirl around with too much negativity.  I think we all do it unless - maybe some people are able to.  I just knew that I couldn't focus on the past "anniversary".  I'm sorry it all happened, I'm sorry for the lives lost but as my coach has taught us, "How do you want to feel?"  Being a sensitive empath, it hurts to watch the news and feel other's pains.

Our groceries were delivered around 11 this morning and after putting them away, I did some tapping with a friend who I've been working with for a few years to help her with her clarity and anxiousness.  It always helps me because I "borrow benefits", as they teach in EFT classes. When I was doing tarot, angel and psychic readings on the psychic chat site for many years, whenever I worked with a client I felt better.  I miss those days.  It's always so special when I get guidance from my guides and angels out of the blue. I think, "wow, where did that idea come from?" Then I give thanks.

I wish I could meditate without going to sleep but it is what it is, and I ended up taking a nice nap. I hope more guidance was downloaded while I slept.  

We decided on having stir fry for dinner and I like prepping food ahead of time and cooking it later.    Here's my prepped stash. 
Yellow squash, zucchini, onions, red peppers, mushrooms, garlic, spinach cooked in a little oil and butter. I season it with garlic powder and a little s&p.  When it cooks down I add a little water and a spoonful of better than bouillon chicken, then cover it with cheese.   We eat it with roasted garlic quinoa.  

I was thinking of adding some pesto to the stir fry when it was finished and maybe a little light soy sauce.  

So that's been my day so far.  We are loving the lovely cool, 53 degree mornings but the heat will be back for a little while.  Fall is coming and I will enjoy my beautiful fall shirts my husband decorated for me. 

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Detaching - Day 11

Tuesday I didn't bypass how I was feeling in my blog and today I'm not going to do it today either.  Yes I missed two days.  Yesterday I still had  some emotional stuff coming up. There was a call at 2:30  with the emotional freedom circle I belong to.  

So I raised my hand and talked about how I was and had been feeling.  We tapped together on the points and talked about vulnerability and also picking up on other's pains.  It is hard being highly sensitive. He said I listen with my heart, mind, groin, angels... in other words my whole being.  It helped.  Sometimes when we feel too much we have to learn to detach.  

Detaching has been difficult for me.  The definition for detach is, among other meanings is: Disengage or Withdraw.   Yes when I listen to someone who is hurting, sad, fearful, I do listen with my whole being. I also feel emotions in my body - my back, my intestines, head.   How do you listen with compassion and at the same time disengage?  It is even harder when it is someone I love and care about.  

Aha I just read this, "stop being responsible for them"!  Yes.  I want to help so much and have them feel better that I absorb their pain.   Maybe if I listened hard enough with my whole being it will help them feel better.  It doesn't work that way except some people have thanked me for being there and listening.  So this is something I want and need to practice.  Listen without tensing my body.  Do some slow deep breathing.  Hold my angel stone in my hand and let it speak through me.  Meditate after listening and turn their problems over to the Higher Power.  I'm sure there are more ways to detach.

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