Fifty Eight Years of Journals - Day 16

1965 Prices

House payment: $55.20
Electricity: $6.59
Telephone: $6.35
Food: $30 average
Dentist Cleaning $10
Trash: $5.25 every six months
TV: $10.07

Imagine paying these prices! Does anyone remember? I found the spreadsheets in my July '65 - June - '66 Journal.  I've been writing in these journals from right before John F. Kennedy was assassinated in 1963. I have them all and don't know what to do with them. 

I know I'd love to discover these from my mother or grandmother. But I don't feel that my family would want to read them. Do I even want them to?

Some say go through these and write some articles.  Or even blog them. I don't want to reread them right now.  One time I tore some pages out and tried to tear them up but I kept feeling NO! Another time I started piling them in a box to get shredded but another NO.  An astrologer suggested I get rid of them and free myself from the past.  Would that work or would wish I had them back. I told hubby if I die first he has my permission to shred them.  A part of me is feeling like hiring a shredder truck to come and shred them. Sigh!

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57 Years of Journaling Day 3

I've been journaling for over 57 years! I started writing in 1962, just before John F. Kennedy was assassinated.  I have all these journals in notebooks dated and many pages numbered.  I'm sure writing in them helped me heal a lot but what do I do with them now?  

I was so sure I was going to shred them and it felt good.  But I had 2nd thoughts.  My son and Granddaughter said they wanted to read them but there are over 15 filled notebooks.  When would they have time?  Are they that interesting?  I wish my mother, aunt or grandmother had written journals and passed them on to me.

I was quite agoraphobic back then and wouldn't eat in restaurants or travel.  I had panic attacks trying to go to church or meetings.  I got somewhat better but much of my pain is on these pages.  During one of my astrology readings,  it was suggested I get rid of these journals so I could release the energy of my past. 

Why am I still holding on? What do I think will happen if I get rid of them? The free shredding truck will be at the park soon. 

Do I think I'm going to write my memoir? Do I need to know what I ate for dinner January 28 1971? 

If there are any other long time journal writers reading this, I'd love to hear your opinions.