Twelve Days Ago

 Here it is twelve days since I blogged.  I finished thirty days of blogging and loved it so much that I wonder why I wasn't keeping up with it.  I don't know.  Maybe it was because my birthday and Mother's day came during those twelve days and I don't really like either one of them.  I know, sacrilegious huh!  I have a great son who I face timed with on Mother's Day.  And I like myself mostly, so it isn't that I don't like my birthday.  It's just that we're supposed to celebrate the day somehow.  Like on my FB page, I got almost 200 Happy BD likes and most of them said "enjoy the day". I loved them, I really felt wrapped in a nice, warm loving blanket.   But what does that "enjoy your day" mean? Take myself out to eat? Watch a movie, read a book, buy myself flowers...?  Before Covid we'd go out to eat and that was always fun.  Asiana, the Chinese buffet in Asheville always gave a free meal on our birthdays.  We love that place, so much to choose from, so that was where we'd go. But the last two years no buffets.   Even though I'm fully vaccinated I still don't feel completely safe eating inside a restaurant.  Thank goodness for takeout's.  I did get my Culver's fix though. Butter burgers, French fries and onion rings.  Yum.  

A friend gave me a gift card to Amazon that I always use for books on my kindle. That is my favorite gift. I'm not a buying flowers type of person though. They do smell pretty, that's for sure.  

  I use my Barnes and Noble credit card to buy take out food. When I reach a certain number of points I get a Barnes and Noble gift card for $25.  I have 2 of them so it's been fun to look through their web site.  I'm thinking of getting a second pack of Radleigh Valentine's Angel Wisdom Tarot cards for more learning and practicing.  I love these cards. Not only are the images beautiful but they are so easy to shuffle. 

 Barnes and Noble have a lot of art books and blank journals.  I could buy these online but I love browsing in the store.   Actually I need to get rid of books.  The print is getting too small to read and I'm thinking of donating a lot of them.  So why go to a book store and buy more? Hmm..  Large Print books are so expensive though. I'm glad for my kindle.  

So maybe I won't want twelve days to write another blog.  Until the next one... 

Birthdays, Shoulds and Mother's Day

My birthday and Mother's day are usually a week apart or so.  This year my birthday was on a Monday and Mother's Day was the next Sunday.  

"What did you do on your birthday?" 

"Tried to buy a door."

An Asian buffet restaurant gives free meals for people on their birthdays.  I felt like I "should" go. After all it's free.   But my taster wasn't for Asian this year.   What did my taster want?  Oh I so dislike the pressure of feeling like I needed to celebrate something just because it was my birthday. I like myself and want to celebrate every day I'm alive and well.  So I relaxed and know that I can go out to eat any time I want.  Yes that felt better.  We ended up getting hubby a new pair of glasses and eating butter burgers at Culver's.  I really like them and it was just what my taster wanted.  Hubby got onion rings and I got french fries. A birthday party in my mouth!

I had some coupons from other restaurants offering desserts for my birthday.  But I had an A1C test coming up two days later and really didn't want to do desserts.  I know, french fries, buns and onion rings are carbs.  I'm getting real tired of worrying or even thinking about this stuff.  After all I just turned 83. 

My test came out too high and it's got me thinking.  I can get my blood sugar down if I work on it and count carbs, cut out things I like to eat and be careful.  But I'm thinking be careful for why?  I'm not real interested in living until 90 and having to be cared for. Yes I know there are people who live past 90 and are healthy and active.  I'm happy for them.  It doesn't "light me up".  Maybe in a few years I might change my mind. 

A part of me would really like to know how long I'm going to live. I know, many say they wouldn't.   Death is a scary subject. I'm not afraid to be dead, it's just how.  I think the right to die should be passed in every state.  For people who have terminal illnesses and are in pain not just for ordinary old people although ...

Financially I'd like to know how long I have to live.  What's special about having a good credit score when you die?  They aren't going to ask me that at the "Pearly Gates".  

At 83 I don't have the ability to answer how I'd like to see myself in 3 years, much less 5.   I can only think about a week at the most.  I don't say, "I can't wait until"  anymore. 

I'm not depressed, just thinking.  I got over 200 wonderful birthday greetings on Facebook. That made me feel wrapped in a sweet blanket of love. 

As for Mother's Day.  I'd rather have a Smiley balloon rather than flowers.  

I'm glad I have a goofy sense of humor.  It helps and as long as I can find things to laugh about, including our crazy lives I'm ok.